Somewhere over the rainbow.

Today i dont know should i cry or should i laugh...

Went into the lab as usual. Other ppl got holiday, never mind..i am in my final year, so it follows that i need to do more; the ears were so scarred and ugly, never mind.. not my first time encountering this situation; the epidermis section were so lousy and the stench were unbearable, never mind.. you cant always ask for perfect skin and pig, which pig doesnt stink, right?? But but........not when they got fleas!o.O........=S......=.=

I freaked out when i saw one, and thought that was THE one and only. But, no...after a while, i felt somethg moving on my head. Got LM to check, and my worst fear come true. Big big flea. Ok, calmed down, at least it is big so can detect easily. Yet, after a while, on close inspection on the pig skin i held, so many of the disgusting creatures, very minute that i mistaken them for dirt! Got agitated by then, and thank God i realized this at the very end of my work. and God protected me, i dont have them swarming over to me.

Ok, on hindsight, it is not that bad. At least, for doing this work i HAD BEEN doing once every week for more than a month now, this time i got PAID. Oooh, cold hard cash of 40 pounds! Havent got them, but i wont rest till i got them! hahaha*evil laugh* ... and yours truly believe a priceless fruit is growing within her. AND ohya, please, she is also very clean now ok?!=P (directed to certain ppls)

Btw, looking at this kid cheer me up:

So geng right?*clap clap*

My true self???

Saw this personality test a couple of weeks ago when my friend tagged me on FB. Didnt appeal to me much initially since there are tons of tests out there that we dont even know who designed it... So why waste time? But then i saw gong gong described the test consisted of something like ".....walking down some paths". Wow, i thought....could be just the thing i need to destress my mind and hey i always like imagining myself walking somewhere. So this got to be a test made for me! Lol.

And after less than 10 mins, THIS is the result. Hmm, not sure whether i should take all the advices on board.

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Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. ~Hmm, this is not the first time i heard this. I very mysterious meh?! i think myself too simple a girl. Maybe its because i dont find myself having interesting facts to share with others?~

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior. ~i guess this is true to a large extent. I am scared of failures, getting hurt and being vulnerable, hence my cautiouness in relationship. And i am not a person that let go very easily , so once i am in, i need to be sure its the right one. Sigh, i wish i dont think that much! but never mind i have God, who is the best matchmaker in the world! heehee.. And what? more open minded? Hey, how am i supposed to know someone is hiding their charm? fooh! so diffcult. You tell me test.. how much "open" is open-minded?

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. ~to the 2nd part, i do hope so~

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. ~amen!=D~

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. ~THIS sounds so much like my grandparents. lol~

How do you view success

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. ~Yes, man! How else should i think?o_O~

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. ~very true indeed. But over the years, i have learn to let go of myself slowly. And i am glad to say though the notion of losing control is still scary, things that i cant control so far are actually among the BEST experiences i ever had! How paradow human fears can be~

Who is your true self

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. ~oooh, i thought i always follow my feelings more than head..no??!=.= confusion confusion~

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*This test helps me to learn a thing or two about myself, but it also reveals a million things more that i dont understand about myself! haha. Hence, my advice: dont take the test unless you are very curious and kepo like me!!=P*

Amazed

Today at last, i manage to catch a few breaths, sitting down , doing things other than labworks.
And somehow, i felt i need to listen to some songs to unwind. These days had been tough for weak weak me.

And i remember this song: Amazed by desperation band





Simple but lovely song. Its my favourite back in college..and now listening back, it touches me: it touches me to know there is a God that remains unchanged through time even though we change with time, be it big or small. No wonder the Bible placed so much importance in asking us to remember. Especially on His many characters that stood the test of time. A tool that keeps us achored and stand firm in the environment whixh often we could not control.

Now and then, there is this thought that comes to my mind when i faced difficulties or feel i cant walk anymore - on asking why cant God stop being so nice to me, so i can get what i want. Why must He be so good that He only meet my needs and not all my wants. After all, its the wants that we human often placed too much importance on, eg money, stable relationship and easy going life. But, fortunately, i am still glad God have the foresight we lack, tough as life throws at us. He meets all needs, but not all wants.

Ok, maybe i am talking nonsense that doesnt makes sense.=p But it doesnt matter, as long as at you get the message that God is good=)

Saturday blues

"Lalalalala.. raindrops falling on my head." Outside it was raining..not an exactly cheerful picture to be in right? And worse thing is i am stuck here in the lab, on a Saturday, even though i have and will continue to spend my days and nights in this place for the rest of the week days.

Not that i love to complain, on the contrary I am so tired of it actually. I had reached a stage whereby i didnt know how to voice my troubles anymore. I psyched myself to feel happy each time i woke up, but then the cycles auto repeat itself during the day. In all, i just felt it not worthwhile.. after spending 3 and 1/2 years in my pharmacy course getting great results after lots of hard works, and now nearing the finishing line, my classification is detemined by lots of factors outside my control. Ya, i admit i have got a high ambition, but really, i dont mind getting just sufficient if my results had been not good all along.. but just not screw up at this end point.

Anyway, these days, i felt really thankful by lots of patient and lovely souls out there. Without them, i didnt know how i would be now. Talking about them, i remembered one wise sentence i would always keep in my heart from one of my friend.

Below are the context of the quote. Wont mention who is that but it cracks me up everytime i remember=) like now. ..Amazing, how human can brighten another one's life, right?

Scene: on ironing trousers
Me: Do u want any iron, i can lend to you if you want.
Anonymous: oh no no no., i dont need iron........i shall just use my body heat.
Me: o_O
Anonymous: And i could condition them as well...using my body oil.
Me:=_=

Wow, talk about eco-friendly to the max!=p